Return

We all hung out for the first time since my hospitalization and since 7/11 day. I could honestly tell that they were really strained around me. I can understand why, but would it fucking kill them to be unconditionally happy that I’m back? Or to at least pretend? It would sting less if they pretended.

I didn’t ask about Noah even when I really should have. It looked like neither of them really knew about it. They’d be way more panicked if they did. I can’t even blame the fact that I was too caught up in friend activities to bring it up because it was nagging at the back of my head for way too long. I think it dragged everybody down. Goddammit. I should probably actually talk about what’s on his blog, shouldn’t I?

The scrolling text? The background?? Literally what the fuck is he talking about??? Is this even hIt can’t be him.

BigPimpinGoku666: All of his stuff got repossessed by the police

BigPimpinGoku666: Something about it being evidence of a disturbed mind

SL1PKNOT-SUX: Then who the fuck is updating it

BigPimpinGoku666: I’m the last person you should be asking that

Who the fuck IS this?

BigPimpinGoku666: It’s probably a troll to be honest

BigPimpinGoku666: It’s probably best to not give it the time of day

BigPimpinGoku666: Let the people online who’ve been going insane over Noah’s story have their flowers with someone that isn’t him

I sort of forgot about 𓂊them. They’re going fucking insane over the situation. They’re drinking in this absolute hellscape.

SL1PKNOT-SUX: You’re not mad at them for doing all this shit

SL1PKNOT-SUX: ?

BigPimpinGoku666: I was mad at first

BigPimpinGoku666: But I don’t really give a shit now

BigPimpinGoku666: I’m just sitting back and watching them create this mythos around him

SL1PKNOT-SUX: That’s fucked up

BigPimpinGoku666: They’re the ones who are fucked up Keith

I guess he’s right?

Something about the way he said that bothers me though. Is that just me?

BigPimpinGoku666: I didn’t mention something btw

BigPimpinGoku666: Even though it should have been top priority the Noah thing kind of

BigPimpinGoku666: took priority for us

SL1PKNOT-SUX: What happened

BigPimpinGoku666: They found Mike’s body

SL1PKNOT-SUX: Holy fucking shit

SL1PKNOT-SUX: What

BigPimpinGoku666: He was found in the back of a burned down Ford Mustang with a bullet wound in his leg

BigPimpinGoku666: The thing burned with him in it

BigPimpinGoku666: You good?

SL1PKNOT-SUX: Yeah

SL1PKNOT-SUX: I needed to walk out for a bit my head fucking hurts now

SL1PKNOT-SUX: There’s so much fucking shit happening I’m overwhelmed

BigPimpinGoku666: Yeah man

SL1PKNOT-SUX: I

SL1PKNOT-SUX: I’m gonna go

SL1PKNOT-SUX: I don’t feel good

BigPimpinGoku666: Ok

I feelsick